Working

You put all of that effort in to fall flat on your face. You bend over backwards to make sure it's all done properly. You have gone out of your way for years to keep up with the relentless work ethic that drives you...but what has it proven? What have you gotten out of all of this? Does it help you to sleep thinking that you have done all you can or are you really just trying to make the best out of the situation you're stuck in? You have the potential to be so much more than the black hole I see - where you are at and what you've become. Dig yourself out of this hole. I see it in you. Become the person you want to be no matter what it takes and stop lying to yourself. You aren't happy and the tell is in your eyes, it's been there for years.